Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Looking for some strength

If you know me or have followed my blog you know the fertility heartache that John and I have gone through over the last 4 ½ years. We have done 3 unsuccessful IUIs, 2 successful IVFs both resulting in miscarriage and countless tests trying to find some sort of explanation as to why we are not able to have a second baby. All the tests have come back fine…. Nothing has ever been wrong with John or me…. UNTIL NOW. Over the last few months we have been gearing up to proceed with a third IVF (they say 3 is a charm ya know)… more tests… all fine….. Then I go for my regular blood work that I have done MANY time before that measures hormone levels. In the infertility world this is commonly known as day 3 blood work (it is done on day 3 of your period). My results came back... BAD… when I say bad I mean BAD. My FSH (Follicle stimulating hormone) came back CRAZY high. 22 to be exact. 10 is the high side of normal. This is the worst possible news that we could have gotten. A high FSH level indicates that I have poor ovarian reserve… which means I am no longer an IVF candidate. We are going to repeat the test on day 3 of my next 2 cycles. Let’s hope its lab error or a fluke…. Let’s hope and pray.

This all just went down right before our 4 day Springfest trip, which was a fantastic getaway. Now that we are back home, the reality has set in… we have LOTS of research to do as far as next steps…. And if Adoption wasn’t so expensive we would have been on the waiting list long ago. We will figure this out, I know we will.


Zorina said...

Oh, no?!? I'm heartbroken after reading your blog. I'll keep on praying for you, my sweet friend. Don't lose HOPE and have big FAITH.
Thank you again for the happy mail we received. I took pics and I'm posting it on my blog. You take care....happy spring...and don't stress out too much. I'm here for you praying hard.

Christa said...

I'm so sorry Erika and I'm praying it was lab error as well. Keeping you in my thoughts through all of this.

Nicole said...

Huge hugs to you, Erika!!! I'm praying it was a fluke. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers through this process, for sure.

Keshka said...

I'm so sorry to hear this, Erika. Thinking of you and praying:)

Anonymous said...

My heart goes out for you. Hoping this is just an error on the lab's part. I hope that your next tests are better.
Question.... if you have high FSH levels, could you carry with a donor egg? I know that is not what you want, but it might be less expensive than adoption. Just curious.

Bless you and good luck sweetie!

Mandie said...

oh, ericka! so sorry to hear all of this! i will be thinking of you!

Kimberly said...

Ohhh My heart aches for you...(((Hugs)))...I will keep you in my prayers the next couple of months for the levels to be more regular.
Loves and blessings,